I went through one of Reggie Ray’s programs, and then kept doing his somatic meditation work on my own.
Personal Experience
•I tried a bunch of the usual meditation stuff and it just kept me in my head. A lot of the instructions are all about the head – watch the space between your thoughts. Let your thoughts be spacious. Your thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, thoughts, still very focused on the thoughts. It kept me up in my head.
•With Reggie Ray, there was not much attention paid to thoughts. It was like: Can you feel your big toe? Can you stay with your big toe? Can you notice that there’s a quality of personality or atmosphere in your big toe? Can you notice some grieving maybe in the big joint of your big toe? Can you feel that? Can you allow that to notice itself? Not you noticing it from the head, but letting it be with itself. Now move that out to the whole foot, to the ankle, move through the whole body with that type of care, attention, and awareness. It didn’t mention thoughts much at all.
What Resonated
•It got everything moving. I started feeling like: My inner monologue isn’t constantly going a thousand miles a minute and trying to kill me all the time. I can feel my body and walk around through the day. There isn’t a sense of void, purposelessness, and depression. I’m making friends and can be around people – it turns out I’m good with people when I’m not in abject despair all the time! It’s nice not to be in abject despair.
•I was increasingly able to choose: Do I want to have an inner monologue today, or not? Let’s go with no. Seems like a good day to not have one. I can just do that.